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At least I am not the only person in the world capable of embarrassing myself in print, right? I keep thinking I am going to be struck by inspiration and write something brilliant, but instead I am spinning this week. My losing streak has continued; as I was getting on the airplane Sunday I realized my grandmother’s wedding ring was not on my finger. That was devastating. And we now have a missing lunchbox, misplaced homework, and it’s a long and tedious story, but the loss of all of the stuff that was on my iPod, which was mostly backed up but not completely.

I’ve been widowed a bit, by the Halo 3 release, only it isn’t as annoying as other video game releases that have left me feeling abandoned. I want to say maybe we are getting the knack of this married thing and communicating a bit more openly, and so more than ever things just are what they are, not potent symbols of unspoken looming things, and it probably helps that he did 99% of the parenting work while we were in New Mexico and I am getting ready to go Friday on a Bahá’í women’s retreat and so there really is no need to try to figure out the accounting of who owes whom what. Maybe it helps that we agreed on a couch at last and95E2F1CE-8457-45BB-911F-B49BFFED9EB4.jpg this is the only image I could find of it on the web but we’re actually getting two armless loveseats because our living room is very small and with a fireplace, built in bookcase and piano, that is what (I hope) will fit, and also it’s purple, no, aubergine (and I have a whole rant stored away on why we don’t actually use color names when describing catalogue items, as if ‘seaside’ were more descriptive than ‘teal’ and maybe I’ve done that already?). Also, the order takes up to eight weeks, and I have my fingers crossed about the loveseats being here before my parents and sister arrive, eight weeks from today, for Thanksgiving.

A funny story that might have gotten a blog entry of its own, only it’s late and I am tired: we no longer proofread our oldest son’s homework, because, frankly, he’s smarter than either of us. We’ll read things he has written and nod and smile. But he had a project he was trying to finish quickly before school on Tuesday morning, where are all of the kids in his class are doing presentations on a presidential candidate, and he and a partner had been making a poster of John Edwards, with pictures and so on, and he decided to google “John Edwards quotes” to put onto his poster and apparently, stuff like:

I think that the majority of messages are validating messages to confirm the survival of conscious. And many times that validation message is negative or sad.
John Edward

In my experience victims are more concerned with helping their families understand that they are still connected to them. In some rare experiences information comes through that helps understand what happened.
John Edward

Information comes through to me in 3 basic ways seen, hearing, and feeling the energy of the person that’s crossed over. In which it is a symbolic type of language.
John Edward

didn’t strike him as strange things for a politician to be saying. Until he was presenting it in class. Apparently it made the substitute that day smile, however, and he got a chance to go to the computer lab and look for some different quotes. And now he knows the difference between John Edwards and John Edward, and thinks it’s a pretty funny story.

I really cannot believe I am signed up for this retreat Friday. It’s about five hours away, and I don’t know anyone else going, have no idea what to expect, and it’s pushing my introvert’s comfort level a little bit. Plus when I get home, I’ll have about twenty-four hours to catch my breath and do laundry before heading to the airport to pick up my best friend and my eighteen month old goddaughter from Texas, with whom I’ll have two days to play before we start Art and Soul on Thursday. Which is also a little terrifying. This seems like a crazy ambitious number of things for me to try and wrap my mind around, so I am really focussed on just what needs to be done each day.

2 Comments

  1. Lara
    Sep 27, 2007

    Dear Mara-
    the retreat sounds wonderful, and what a better place to come out of your shell! I hope you have a great time.

  2. unreliable narrator
    Sep 29, 2007

    Ah, so the faeries wanted your gran’s wedding ring, eh? They must have been jealous of how much you loved it, of how much human love it represented. When the small folk take things, Feri says it’s time to look at what is hovering on the edges of your consciousness, demanding your attention and not getting it. The fey ones will start to break and steal things until you notice. So a Bahá’í retreat and Art & Soul? Sound about right. Would write more but you are not there…so more soon. And, I don’t mean to sound cavalier about the losses….or moralistic….losses like that are so devastating; loss in general just guts me. Which might be the kind of thing John Edward would say so I will leave it at that. May your aubergine (totally normal colour name in the UK!) loveseats be sat, snuggled, and slept upon happily for many years….

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